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oh, sweet insanity
Created on 2008-09-02 20:13:29 (#16502752), last updated 2009-12-04
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Basic Info| Name: | queen of pain |
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| Birthdate: | 1987-11-14 |
| Location: | Ontario, Canada |
| Website: | The Deepest Gray |
Bioyou can refer to me as "ohsweetinsanity", as i would rather not give out my real name. i'm 21 years old, with black & pink hair, a fake & bake tan and a bellybutton ring. i would like to get some tattoos in the future. i stand at 5'4 and weigh something in the 70's (i haven't had the courage to step on the scale in a while).
i'm a little bit of a hippy, a little bit of a nerd, a little bit of an 80's child (or just a child..) who can't get enough death metal and screamo.
i've struggled with anorexia and bulimia since grade nine in high school. i was hospitalized for anorexia late in the nine grade and ended up getting worse when i got out of the hospital. that's when i really started to fight back. at first it was just about losing a little weight, but it never turns out like that in the end. the fact that everyone wanted me to get better just made me sicker. i discovered throwing up, laxatives, diet pills and over-exercising.
over the past 8 years, i've "recovered" for about a year. besides that short stint of wellness, the disorder has seemed to stick with me through thick and thin. it's something that i lean back on when things aren't going the way that i would like them to. it's something that i have to comfort me.
i hope one day to recover from this and not have this voice in the back of my head. i just can't see that day happening any time soon. you have to be ready, to want it. and as much as i hate this disorder and it's partially why i haven't gotten to where i want to be, i'm not ready.
i'm a little bit of a hippy, a little bit of a nerd, a little bit of an 80's child (or just a child..) who can't get enough death metal and screamo.
i've struggled with anorexia and bulimia since grade nine in high school. i was hospitalized for anorexia late in the nine grade and ended up getting worse when i got out of the hospital. that's when i really started to fight back. at first it was just about losing a little weight, but it never turns out like that in the end. the fact that everyone wanted me to get better just made me sicker. i discovered throwing up, laxatives, diet pills and over-exercising.
over the past 8 years, i've "recovered" for about a year. besides that short stint of wellness, the disorder has seemed to stick with me through thick and thin. it's something that i lean back on when things aren't going the way that i would like them to. it's something that i have to comfort me.
i hope one day to recover from this and not have this voice in the back of my head. i just can't see that day happening any time soon. you have to be ready, to want it. and as much as i hate this disorder and it's partially why i haven't gotten to where i want to be, i'm not ready.
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